There were these moments in that safe, stillness in time, when I was dead - right when I was about to come back to life.
I would think about things in the past that made me happy. Things that gave me hope. All these things kept me sane. They push me to hang on when all I wanted to do was give up and turn off my humanity. But eventually, the pain took away those moments from me too.
Every time I close my eyes, I see Silas stabbing me, I can feel myself drowning. I need to make it stop.